
It's a goofy feeling, being hopelessly awake at 2 AM. Normal people hit REM at least couple hours ago. Listening to "
Finest Worksong" is the closest I'm coming to that right now. But that's the plight when every day feels like a game of Battleship--"Am I going into work tonight?" Another destroyer hit, or a resounding splash?
Tonight, hear the splash.
Deal is, because I couldn't get on the current schedule (in spite of calling over a month in advance), the house supervisor has my name on the board as the first person to call if they need another ER tech (aka Patient Care Tech, aka my job title).
The last five nights I've been called in at various times, helping lighten the load during crazy times and leaving once the mad rush slows again. This means wacky work hours, thus wacky sleep hours. Thus it's me, one leg slung over the
recliner I'm perched in, amused at how loud the clock on the wall sounds when nothing else is happening.
Not being one to ever get bored, I've been using this time to catch up on some correspondence (SGA Band in particular), talk with Rissa for a good while, and now blog a bit before bed.
I spent a majority of today more intensely studying the
Isaiah 45 passage where God says "I am God, there is no other," several times, and repeated reminds us He is in control as the Powerful-Potter, the Sky-Stretcher, the Mountain-Mover. Way back during my first humble recording sessions with Zach, I wrote and recorded a tune for the "Operation: Rescue the Captured" project simply called "There Is No Other." Though loosely based on this Scripture, the lyrics had more stream of consciousness productivity, and the song never rose from its own ashes.
Until today.
This morning, it occurred to me the similarity of discussion between Isaiah and the opening pages of Tozer's classic and one of my favorites, "
The Knowledge of The Holy" (the entire book is
here in electronic form). Thoughts on man's affinity for wandering and idolatry, and prayers for my own confession as well as seeking forgiveness for the Church whole, all these wrapped my mind tightly enough to finally dare another penning of "There Is No Other."
I call it "resurrecting" a song, because it's taking the old carcass of a song long dead to the original hopes for public presentation and reviving it like
old car restorers or
house flippers do. It's kind of my unwritten rule that if a song doesn't make it after the second try, then it's gone. But that all depends on how many years of dust it's been wearing. Some tunes are recent enough to lay beside the crash cart for several more
AED shocks even after a couple dozen reworkings. Perhaps everyone's songwriting beast has a different nature. Well, that's the one for mine.
Like every new song, I played the resurrected "There Is No Other" through about 5 or 6 times in succession, then sought out a device to record a rough version. Usually it's the nearest thing that I use, meaning my cell phone or Zen Micro. Zen's unreliable and dying, cell's memory is full (a couple songs on Voice Memo there already), so I scrounged up this here laptop and the computer mic, set them atop the piano, and got to work.
After that tune, it made sense to re-record rough versions of each of the songs off of the new project for which I've been writing, this gift to the Church. The project has been dubbed "Second Nature: A Soundtrack for Worshiping Well" and will consist of 11 songs (unless I write more) specifically designed to be sung as a Church body, but also inclusive to everywhere else where believers may happen to exist. The idea stems from this longheld realization of mine that true worship consists of so much more than words and songs, but every aspect of our lifestyles. So these songs are, as can be noted in the secondary title, a soundtrack for the worship-full lifestyle.
In no particular order, the songs included are:
-Floored
-There Is No Other
-We Will Not Be Shaken
-Mountains Fall
-Second Nature
-You Are Not Your Own
-Familiar Place
-Is It This Time?
-Empty Hands (You Are Holy, LORD)
-Morning Fog (Instrumental Interlude)
-New Me
Several titles look familiar? Though not all full resurrected, I have taken a few from previous albums and worked with them a little in places so that a collective can sing them meaningfully.
Playing through all of these songs as I rough-recorded them today ignited the longing to start tracking for real, setting up clicks, laying down scratches and bed tracks, and on and on. But I've already decided it--no official recording this summer. It was a hard call, since I've managed to put out at least one recording project every calender year since middle school I think (Actually, I'm pretty sure "Operation" began that tally). Mehopes to carve enough time this fall to work on it, however. What we're looking at is a simplistic CD, one that pays huge attention to lyrical content and melodic qualities, and much less on super-high production expectations and major full band work.
What you'll probably hear on this record will sound more like a natural sitdown on an average day, with an acoustic or piano taking forefront instrumental duties, a semi-serious string arrangement giving a healthy handful of nods with the cello, and a couple drops of percussion wrapped in flavorful tinges of accessory electric guitar. . . Well, the sound will be more simplistic than that description anyway. More info on this project as this
feuilleton comes along. (In the meantime, you should check out
Jeremy Casella's latest release, "
Recovery" which has a great mixture of folk singer-songwriter meets orchestra meets electronica. Very inspiring.)
So those of you who remember are probably wondering about "
Anticipation," "
Simple Subtle Sweet" and "
Möbiustrip"--three full albums that have yet to see the light of day, or shall I say, the darkness of your CD players. Well, I'm having some trouble knowing what to do with them, actually, in light of minimal time for playing shows and lack of capital for album releasing due to my Togo trip this summer. I'm considering a few options:

*Option 1: Release them all digitally on The Podcast. (But this means a pain-in-the-neck for anyone who wants a physical CD...They have to locate the files from the download area of their computer and settle with MP3's versions instead of WAV's like my other CDs carry.

*Option 2: Raise money via donations for them to go to CDBaby ($60 per album), again digitally, but with the eternal availability on the iTunes Store (as opposed to limited availability on The Podcast--note: "More Than Just This Sky" forfeited half its tracks when newer podcast singles were posted)

*Option 3: Raise even more money via donations for them to be manufactured into actual physical CDs (either professionally---at about $500 for #200 CD's---or domestically, where smaller batches of #30 CDs can be made at about $2 or $3 a CD, but this is much more time intensive. One other bonus here is the availability of album art, which all but "Mobiustrip" currently have.
Post your comments or email me at debtormusic@yahoo.com and let me know your thoughts.
Be aware that these are albums from the summers of 2004, 2005, and 2006 (roughly, because I've never released them, and occasionally still tweak them here and there as needed). The songwriting and production quality match my level of skill at those times, which, though for the most part are quite decent, may seem like a decline in comparison to the dEbToR EPs out there ("Dives and Climbs," "Sand and Sentiments," "Convalescence")
Or perhaps, seeing three albums and three options, I'll go with one album per option. Hmm...
That's gonna do it for tonight...errr...this morning. Perhaps at enough little plastic missiles of tiredness will be enough to sink the patrol boat we're gonna call "Sleep."